It’s now been five days since I’ve turned off the media and put all of my focus into the writing of my book. In doing so, I gave myself the greatest gift: a peace of mind. I’m so much more energetic and there is a bigger spring in my step. While I still don’t believe this is an ideal situation to be in, I’m starting to view it as a blessing in disguise.
My pre-Covid life revolved around work and money with the occasional heavy partying in the mix. I struggled hard because I was constantly looking at my glass as being half empty. Nothing was ever good enough for me (which honestly, some things weren’t good at all) until finally I had enough! I knew that the only way I could heal and lead a healthier, happier and more fulfilled lifestyle, I had to leave my hometown. So I made that happen when I went to Eaglesham, Alberta. But just as things were starting to get better, Covid hit and I lost everything. At least I thought I did.
I don’t know about you, but I’ve spent a great deal of time over the past six weeks overcome with anxiety, thinking about everything that ever went wrong in my life and about all those people who had treated me horribly. But the moment I turned off the media and re-took to the writing of my novel, things just got better. But my problems didn’t simultaneously get better. I made a conscious effort to re-program my thinking.
Let’s turn the tables and spend more time thinking about all of our past achievements.
The past three years were few of the most difficult years of my life. Yet, amidst the storm came my greatest achievements.
2018: I bought a car, planted a 14-tree cedar hedge all by myself. All of those trees were 6-8 feet tall, yet I somehow rose to the challenge and found the strength within to complete the job. Less than a month later, I took an even greater risk when I quit my job and became a self-employed landscaper. I met some amazing people, developed leadership skills and took on projects I otherwise wouldn’t have had the opportunity to do had I stuck it out with an employer.
2019: I built a Zen garden for one of my clients and I crushed the ACE group fitness exam (a very difficult exam), thus kicking off an exciting new career as a fitness instructor.
2020: I left the Sunshine Coast and went to the hamlet of Eaglesham in Northwestern Alberta, not knowing anyone other than Doug and Maggie Greenfield. My fitness classes there were a success! Covid may have stopped that, but it hasn’t stopped me. I am now avidly working on my novel with the goal to complete the first draft this year.
I just need to keep that flow going! How about you?
I mentioned that this situation is a blessing in disguise. Not only has it enabled me to do much more writing, it has given me the time to re-evaluate my values and re-program my mindset. Like you, I don’t know what the future has in store. My future is probably even more uncertain than yours in that I’m currently living like a nomad. My parents have just sold their home on the Coast; I am currently staying temporarily with my brother until I can figure out where to go next. Yet, I still have a peace of mind and I have faith knowing that everything will work out well in the end. In any case, I do ask myself this question: Do I really want to return to my old lifestyle when things do finally return to normal? The answer is no!
I don’t know where you are at in your life journey, how you are coping with this current situation. But here’s a new challenge for you: take time to reflect on all of your past achievements. Write them down in a journal, talk about them with your partner or with a friend and keep them in the forefront of your mind. Next, ask yourself this question: What do I want to accomplish in 2020? Think about it. Write about it. Set that goal in motion and don’t give anxiety anymore room in your thoughts.